uggh it’s hard to be a Christian Single.
I broke one of my rules recently. I broke one of my personal rules and I’m so upset about it. See I made a few rules to govern my relationships with guys, and each rule had a reason. After years of studying myself, and desiring to be the kind of woman God wants me to be, I made those rules. But lately I’ve been going through some life transitions, and for some reason I stopped following my own rules. I stopped focusing on God for a while, and before I knew it, I realized that I wasn’t as full as I needed to be.
I won’t tell you which rule I broke, but I will let you know that it’s good to have some rules.
But anyway I’m writing this to let you know that I understand. It’s not easy being a Christian Single. Sometimes when people read my blog or my book they think I’m perfect, that I’ve got it all figured out, that I’m super-strong and I have all the answers, but it’s not true. It’s God’s grace that has kept me so far…
So lately I’ve been hearing “Behold what manner of love the father has bestowed upon us…” “Behold what manner of love…”
When the Bible tells us to “Behold” it’s telling us to look…it’s like when you’re hanging out with your friends and you see something really cool and you say “oh my goodness! you have to see this amazing thing! Look!” and so the Bible tells us Look at this amazing thing- God loves you!
Look at this amazing thing, God’s love is so amazing that it’s tangible, it’s something you can see, and feel, and experience. Look at this amazing thing, God loves you enough to call you his child even though He knows you are not perfect, and even though he knows you will fall down and fail multiple times in this life.
Look at this amazing thing! Behold, what manner of love the father has bestowed upon us that we should be called sons of God. 1 John 3:1
So why am I writing this now? Well I want you to know that God does not expect perfection from you. God wants amazing things for you, and that’s why he directs you to do things certain ways. But even if you mess up (like me), don’t dwell in it. Even if you mess up so badly that there are dire consequences (STDs, Children, broken heart), forgive yourself, learn fromt he situation, and move on.
You are so special to God. If you only knew how much God loves you, and how he forgave you before you even realized that what you were doing was wrong. If you only knew how much God has invested in you because you are so valuable to him, you would join me in yelling: Behold! what manner of love the father has bestowed upon me that he would call me special and call me his beautiful daughter!